Dreams (Spoken Word)

Spoken Word poem by Valerie Chin

If ever you’ve dreamed a dream

that which you’d never dream of dreaming,

One so blissful

that you never want to wake from it again,

or if you were to wake up from it,

you’d spend your day, day-dreaming of the dream you thought you’d never dream of.

I’d envy you,

for my dreams are dreams that place burden upon me.

Dreams that I would not want to dream of in my dreams.

Where I’m running

and can’t run fast enough,

where I am falling

and I hit the ground before waking,

where chaos ensues around me and there in the mist of it all

I stand.

Wishing that what I saw

was a dream

when really

it is dream

and I am just not realizing it.

Not realizing that I can stand up and fight

against the metaphysical creations of my imagination.

Not realizing that the little girl crying is not just any girl,

but it’s me,

me.

Hurting.

Scared.

That little girl, who in my dreams

I want cradle,

and tell her it’s going to be ok,

that everything will be fine

and to not be afraid.

That one day she won’t have to cry at the sound of her parents yelling

and she won’t have to worry about what other people are saying,

because I know

that everything will

turn

out

fine.

But I can’t,

because that little girl is a dream,

in world that I have no control over.

No matter how much I want to change that little girl’s life I can’t,

because no one can change the past,

not even in a dream.

So while those little girl’s tears created who I am today,

I can’t help but wonder how different I would be

if someone had just told me that

everything

would be ok.