Day Dreaming - Horoscope

"A little breathing room sounds like a good idea now, and luckily today may offer you some. The problem is that your solace may not come from the real world; it probably arrives in the form of fantasy. You are given an escape route into a world of daydreams. There's nothing wrong with taking a journey inward as long as you still show up to meet your responsibilities, too."

Normally my horoscopes are semi-accurate, but rarely do I get horoscopes that are.. almost dead-on.

A little breathing room did sound good today... or rather this morning at 9:30AM while I was sitting in class waiting for a 30-minutes-late-Philip to show up for class. He got there eventually... but anyways, waiting is beside the point. It is the breathing room that was important. "In the form of fantasy," it says... now, I keep it to myself, but I have a very vivid imagination. Probably why I have many annoyingly-disturbing dreams.

Anyways... After class, ate lunch with Philip, then hung out in the student center "studying" for about an hour and a half, went to class, dinner, and then to work. Everything was going fairly well. I don't know when exactly my mindset changed. Sometime after work but before I got home.

I guess alot of what I have been feeling is just a needing to belong somewhere, or maybe with someone? I don't know. That sounds corny, and needy, and the last thing I want to sound is needy, but I guess I am a little bit on the lonelier side these days.

Pushing people away
So, I kind of always had this feeling that I just choose not to get close to anyone in particular, and when I start to, I distance myself from them... by like... ALOT.

Now... I just seem to be... just me. Wondering where all the people have gone from in my life. Why is it that I am so alone? I ran away from any potential guys my first year, and all the guys I've since liked are otherwise preoccupied with other things. Things are just frustrating right now. Especially since I haven't been able to get the right amount of sleep that I've wanted to get. I keep staying up, tossing and turning. Maybe that is because of my new diet... I don't know. So many different factors. Classes, diet, people, neighbors, food, stress, no stress, etc. haha I mean, everything is just a little crazy. I don't know. I guess I'll figure things out eventually. Whatever happens, happens; and it'll happen for a reason, ya?